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This episode contains descriptions of sexual assault, violence, and suicide.

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And it just blows my mind that you could feel so comfortable with another human being

and not know what kind of monster they really are.

Jennifer Aspenson grew up in Morango Valley, California, a small town near Palm Springs.

Her dad moved the family to an empty property when she and her brother were young.

We just basically lived on the mountain like we were camping.

We rarely bathed.

We ate canned foods. We eventually got a double-wide

trailer with no electricity. We lived in that while my dad built the house. Growing up out there

obviously was not idyllic, and Jennifer's parents weren't making the situation any better.

My dad was an alcoholic, a nonviolent alcoholic.

He was the type that could drink alcohol all day long, still drive home, still do anything,

and you would never even know that he had been drinking.

And he didn't want to come home because my mom was very depressed

and my brother was handicapped.

I think that my mom never liked me.

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