Hey guys, I'm Jerry. I'm Sierra. We're ladies and we tangent. What's up everyone? Hello? I don't think we said that last week. What?

Are you joking? No, well, we were really, it was a lot going on last week. Yeah, we were having a lot of feelings. Oh, I also never clapped and that was a real pain in the bitch for me.

Oh, go ahead and slap. And there we are. Yeah, that's real pain in the bed. It was a real pain in the bed. Um, hey, please don't lick your hot spot. Can't do that. He's got allergies. Me too. I know.

Oh, hi, oh, is for allergies. Um, hey guys, hey, how's it going? How are we still doing? Um, I feel I feel fine. Do you? Yeah, yeah, finer than I have in a while. I know. I'll say I feel like I have started a new chapter.

Oh, proud of you. Thank you. You needed that. I did need that. And maybe it's because my bangs can touch behind my ears again. That's nice. Man, that is nice. I felt like guys, I know that I was really like playing up the bangs thing. And maybe I've talked about how much I hated them before, but I'm going to reiterate it again.

When I did that to myself, the amount of self-loathing that I had, it was like I had so much confusion on the inside that it was like we're going to manifest this physically on your head for you.

Everyone can see how you're filled. Shevelled you are on the inside. Yeah. Um, and then I just had to like make it work, but truly I did not feel comfortable. Yeah.

And when we were in LA, and I was able to tuck my hair behind my ears again, I was like, she's a chic bitch. Yes. It makes a difference when you feel comfortable. Yeah.

Like that's how I feel like when I, there, there's some like baby things still hanging around in this area. And I truly don't mind gaining weight. I pictured multiple babies hanging.

Yeah. No, but I truly don't mind gaining weight. It's like, doesn't bother me. However, the fact that it's like all in this centered area.

And like, I don't feel like I can sit comfortably. I don't feel like I can bend over comfortably. I don't feel like I can button my pants and feel comfortable in anything that's not sweats.

Is that's I can feel I feel that. Yeah, but it's starting to go away. And it is just like my uterus. I had a baby. So it's not even like I'm saying like that it's something that it's I know what it is, but it's just uncomfortable.

Yeah. Well, and we always have to remember that like even though we can cognitively say I don't care about gaining weight. I am not defined by the number.

Yeah. That is on the scale or the number that is on my clothes. You, there is still something within you.

The foundation of how we view our bodies. Yeah. Was built when we were literal children. Yeah. Very much so.

Even though as adults, we know differently, we are battling. Yes. Essentially our younger self who's saying, no, that's bad. No one will love you like this. No, I'm afraid to that I'm going to be made fun of for that.

And even like I said, even though we know now, we have to like tell the younger version of ourself like we're still a bad bitch. Yeah. And I am. I just can't bend over.

We just got to get bigger clothes because it hurts. Yeah, it squeezes in areas that I don't want it to. Yeah. Well, it's not even I don't even wouldn't say that it's like a weight gain. It's just a postpartum body man.

And that first year, it's going to be different. And I thought is tough. It's tough. I saw my shadow today. And I was like, when did I get hips? Oh, hey, I've never had hips in my life.

It was like an ongoing joke that I was shaped like a board. And I obviously wasn't scared about that because I thought hips was like a womanly thing. And that's the figure hourglass all that bullshit.

And so I looked at myself and I was like, oh my god, I think I have hips. And then I had like the realization that my body will never even though I don't know why you guys ever have realization sometimes where you're like, yeah, yeah, fucking duh.

We've always known that you've said that before even. But like it doesn't click till it clicks. It clicked in that moment where I'm like, my body is never going to be the same again. I am 31 years old. I have two babies.

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