Lemonnotta.

So, I'm pretty.

I know that may be a weird thing to say out loud, but I think it's an important one to acknowledge.

And I'm going to tell you why in this episode of hard feelings.

Well, I don't know why I got so presentational there.

I've never done that.

Anyway, here'm not. So I feel like you know every kid starts thinking about their appearance kind of just

on the cusp of puberty maybe a little earlier but I started even earlier than that

because I was in an industry that is so hyper fixated and obsessed with

the appearance of children which is every bit as creepy as it sounds. I

I went out for a lot of roles I went out for a lot of roles. I went out for beauty pageant contestants and you know

little you know daughters of famous and very attractive,

the actors and actresses.

I had my fair share of that stuff.

I also went out for roles like, you know,

a homely looking girl, but you can't separate those things when you're little

you can't go like oh well I'm also going out for the beauty queen so instead

it's just like you see the word homely and you just think like oh so I guess I'm not I'm not

pretty like that's the conclusion that you draw as a kid and not to mention you know

you're in rooms with the literal prettiest people,

prettiest children, the hottest children on earth,

because that's what, Hollywood is. You can't so I'm you know I'm a kid I'm not able to differentiate any of that I'm not able to discern I don't know the difference so I just kind of get this messaging that I'm not

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