You know, you cross that border, I mean, it's like a sort of religious flash or

non-sexual orgasm or something. It's just a wonderful feeling when you get through.

It's never handed from anything else.

Ever.

I found a cannabis smuggling more addictive than any other activity I've ever done.

I mean I never lost any sleep at night thinking I was doing something that was morally wrong.

And I have always felt that the law against cannabis use is rather sinister and evil.

So felt in some naive idealistic way

that I was actually doing good.

After more than two years of undercover work, it's culminated in a series of arrests and the

smashing of what's being called one of the world's biggest drugs rings.

I think the getting caught bit was a important know important part that might be happy now really

it's probably the best thing it happened to me.

I mean to be reminded every day that there's a death row that building is a death row, of course, is ominous.

You know, you've got to think about it.

Definitely a much better person than the one who went in and probably a better person than I am now.

Since then, have you ever thought about going back to the life?

Oh, several times.

Several times.

I mean, the first time was as soon as I got out because I thought well

tactically that's the best ever that's the last thing they're going to expect.

Well you think they've got to be scared of it. Jesus Howard you are crazy.

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