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When I think of any of the pain that I've experienced in my life,

a good 95% of it was

completely avoidable.

Most of the pain that I experience is

regretting things in the past

and mostly worrying about the future,

catastrophizing about what might happen,

trying to create certainty,

thinking about something terrible that might happen,

but treating it as if it definitely will happen.

Focusing so intently on all the terrible scenarios that might play out that I'm experiencing

anxiety and fear and shame and low self-esteem.

And this pain, this real pain, it's not being caused by something that's actually happening.

It's being caused by my own thoughts, my own inner world.

And that's about, I'd say, about 95% of the real discomfort, the real sad times, the real unhappy times, the painful times in my life.

It's been that shit, shit that isn't actually fucking happening.

My internal predictions, my what ifs.

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