But what I'm really looking for is I'm looking for the cycles.

If I had the good days, I'm going to see what I was doing during that time

if I was having bad days, no, no, six years.

So I was trying to see what specifically was happening.

The second thing that I did is instead of me trying to tell the market,

my customers, my leads, people around me, what they should be buying from me,

I refocused myself on the relationship.

How much do you value introspection?

How much did it hurt somebody said to lose that much?

How much did it hurt?

Well, what was the emotions from going,

I'm making $200,000 a month in my 20s to you saying,

I'm 1.7 million dollars.

Did you ever wake up and go, dude, I think I made a big mistake.

I nearly killed myself.

Really? Oh yeah, I was in the hospital every few months.

Was it just stress?

Stress, yeah, it just ruined me.

It turned out all, I mean, literally,

okay, you know, you watch movies, right?

And you have those moments where someone's sitting in the corner,

they've got a paper bag, Scotch bottle,

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