Hey, I don't you ding-dum, the-dg-a-like, bum-a-o-a-u-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a- Today I'm going to talk about the power of a compliment.

So thanks so much for joining me. I'm actually going to tell you a story and you

guys are probably going to judge me, but that that is okay I'm hoping that some of you

can find I guess that enlightenment that I found from this thing that happened to me so you

guys know that I struggle with my weight. It's just this progressive

issue that I have. I keep getting bigger. I try and fail. I make promises to myself that I'm going to start eating healthy and exercising and I never keep those promises

I sort of tell myself the story that why even bother at this point because I'm not going to be able to stick with anything and I'm actually going through to get gastric bypass surgery.

I'm going to the meetings and hopefully that I'm approved for the surgery, which some of you are going to totally judge that.

And that's cool. Judge it silently in your head. I don't want to hear it.

That is the thing that I'm moving towards at this point in my life.

I might chicken out like I did last time and go with another option, but for right now that is the decision I've made. Another thing that's going on in our house though is my husband

is like balls out into fitness right now in health so he's not eating sugar or carbs he's eating a lot of protein he's

making really healthy choices he's also crazy working out so he's running

all the time he's doing push-ups and sit-ups and lifting weights and

when he started doing this I I got really resentful and I started taking it as sort of like a slight against myself.

I thought he was doing it to try to motivate me or to prove to me how easy it was. He never has had a weight problem.

So I guess I thought he was doing it as something to do with me. I mean how self-centered is that?

And then he started getting results and he started looking better and he lost some weight and he started getting muscle and I was teasing him about it.

I was getting really just, yeah yeah part of it was jealousy and part of it was

fear that the more he worked towards that the more he would look at me with disgust or yeah not not want to like

why would a fit person want to be with somebody so unfit like me. So there was a fear involved and so I was just not nice to him.

Anytime he would work out as to roll my eyes, he'd say he wants to go for a run. I'd heavy sigh. He would, you know, I'd make dinner and he would only eat the vegetables and I'd sort of, you know, I'd get, I was just, I'd be annoyed. I'd act annoyed towards him and what started happening was he

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