Hey everybody, AJ Benzi here with fame is a bitch. This is your free show. It is Monday May 22nd, 2023. Wow, 5222023.

We got one more weekend left in May before it's this guy's birthday and I am a double XL down below only kidding but really not.

No, no gifts necessary because some of you have gotten very angry at me about changing this for free shows from 5 days a week to 1 day a week and let's just say 3 free is a week in 2 classics.

And I've gotten some harsh criticism luckily my fame fam jumped on my side and protected me but boy you really find that a lot about yourself. It's funny I think some people forget or even don't care that when they tend to bad mouth me which is 100% you're right to do and I would never take it away from you.

Some of you bad mouth me on my own page which is funny it's like going to somebody's front porch and screaming through this screen window how much they hate you or what a what a bad business venue or my favorite one the other day was somebody called me.

AJ was much better in the beginning now he's too cocky and I thought yeah I guess I've been cocky yeah.

I guess I was especially cocky when I was an ICU dying of COVID for 8 days that was a cocky time of my life I really thought like who the hell I thought I was and of course living in my system is basement in Chicago.

You couldn't tell me nothing I was so cocky back then the separation and divorce and all the bad news and the crying and all the situations that occurs around that sort of thing I was acting very cocky.

But I think when my nephew died that's when I was at my most cocky that's when I thought like my shit don't stink and I guess that person has a point I do become cocky during certain periods of my career.

I'm not cocky you know what cockiness is cockiness is confidence it means that I've been in this position before and I know how to get out of it.

And if you can prove that you can get out of it and any cocky it's confidence and for God's sakes I was cocky my whole life but I'd certainly say the last five years or so has been a very humbling experience.

I'd be the first to tell you and I think anybody who really knows me not just people who tune in to the free show here and there.

But you guys don't know me the patron audience really knows me because we're very personal and they hear things and they heard some really great things about a patron of ours who passed away at terrific man French powered trooper special forces soldier and be a photographer professional rodeo photographer.

I mean this last weekend was some sort of rodeo championships and they put his picture up and they talked about him on air.

He was quite a special guy and he passed away in his sleep at 51 years old the other day and I was very moved and shaken by it.

And everybody on the patron page you know responded in kind because they know his name and they've been around his name and the great Chris Elise is no longer with us and if you knew about him or.

Carried a check his Instagram page you can see what kind of a cool guy he was just one of the coolest men have ever met his Instagram is fro your mind F R O while you are M I N D fro your mind that's because it's a black man he liked to wear his out fro nice and big.

But he was a pisser and he now he's gone so with all these people dropping like flies my philosophy of late has been everybody take it easy take it easy because you don't know when the last time you're going to speak to somebody is that's how frequently these deaths are occurring and Chris's death right now we don't know what the cause is he was found dead in his sleep we don't know we don't know yes he had the vaccination so did I so I'm sure he's not going to be a good guy.

So did I so did many of us and I don't know about you but it's definitely put me on edge ever since that day so.

Moving on from that I just want to tell you here I'm at this hotel I don't know there was an off road race this weekend past weekend called state line and it was taking place a few miles outside the desert here in Nevada and I'm in three I'm in one of three hotels that are all bunch together Buffalo bills whiskey peets and prim Valley those are the first three casino set UC one true past the California state line into Nevada.

And they was stuffed to the gills with people who came here to drink dream and drive and by people I mainly mean Mexicans because Friday night and Saturday night well Friday night first of all Friday night the girlfriend and I were in the hotel room and a great big desert thunderstorm started and I love those and it was pissing rain like straight down with droplets as big as marbles biblical.

And like we always do we raised outside to watch it we went on top of this awning or this bridge so to speak to look but then we wanted to get closer and get in it actually get in the rain because how many times do you run through the rain you know not many once you're an adult unless you get caught in it but we went out and wanted to get caught in it and that we raised outside and watched it and took in the smell of rain on dry ground you know that smell.

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