What's up, everyone? First off, thank you so much for taking a listen to the first ever enjoy the podcast episode one. Yeah.

The main reason why I started this podcast was to, you know, develop a deeper bond and a deeper understanding of each other.

I mean, I find that as an artist, I tend to hide behind my music.

Expressing emotions and perspectives by just speaking is something that is new to me. I noticed for me,

the only way I can grow holistically is by putting myself in positions that are uncomfortable.

I never was a good speaker, you know.

I've always been a good expressor, though.

You know, I've been great at expressing myself, but it always was through something creative.

So I thought, why not challenge myself to do a podcast?

Because that will force me to build the muscle of speaking.

I know that sounds so funny, but for me, I find growth and evolution are closely connected to being uncomfortable. So here we are. And now I started a podcast and you guys are

listening to it. And I'm grateful. And I mean, shoot, it's going to be a good time. But first off,

let me just explain the word enjoy. I use it across everything. And I'd never truly explain that to

you guys. So I thought thought why not start episode one

with explaining what enjoy means to me um so the happy smiling all the time joyful person that

you see today is not who I've always been I was a miserable person um some would say i was in a consistent state

of depression uh i hated life i had no hope i pushed everyone as far away from me as i could um

so you know i was just in a dark place and let me take you to one of the darkest nights I've ever had.

So I just got let go for my job, you know, for one, that job didn't pay me for about six months prior.

And I was surviving off a tip money. So I barely had enough money for rent. I barely had enough money to keep the lights on.

I wasn't even eating well. I wasn't eating well for years. I would eat like gas station food and

top ramen and chips and anything that I can get my hands on that was very, very cheap. I recently

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