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Holding Trauma- Where Have I Been? Update | After Hours With Amanda Ep. 27

After Hours With Amanda

After Hours With Amanda

Parenting, Kids & Family

5.0697 Ratings

🗓️ 18 December 2021

⏱️ 36 minutes

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Summary

In this episode of After Hours With Amanda, I’m catching up on life, therapy, trauma work, Disneyland prep, and what I did not realize about healing: you can work through trauma and still be holding it.


I share how intrusive thoughts about my kids led me back to therapy, how losing my mom and brother shaped my fear, and how migraines, dizziness, jaw clenching, and exhaustion made me realize my body was sending an SOS.


This one is about asking for help, releasing survival habits, letting go of control, and giving ourselves grace when healing looks inconsistent.



00:01 Welcome Back And Catching Up

00:50 Missing The Moment And Disneyland Prep

01:11 Trauma Does Not Have To Be Comparative

02:19 How I Found My Therapist

03:02 Intrusive Thoughts About My Kids

04:50 Crying In The Closet

06:22 Mental Health Support For Kids

07:03 What Therapy Did Not Tell Me

07:26 Trauma Responses In Marriage

10:17 Holding Trauma In Your Body

11:24 The Doctor Appointment

14:27 When The Tension Finally Lifted

16:11 Cutting Caffeine And Finding Quiet

18:24 Self-Care Versus Real Care

19:32 Trauma Habits As Identity

20:13 Asking For Help And Feeling Strong

22:07 Peace, Control, And Letting Go

24:14 Identity, Social Media, And Showing Up

26:42 It Is Okay To Be Sporadic

29:14 Fear Before Disneyland

31:06 Questioning Old Rules

34:13 Accepting Who I Am Becoming

35:07 Thank You For Showing Up

Transcript

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0:00.0

Hi. Oh, you know what? In the effort to be as professional as possible, welcome to After Hours with Amanda, the podcast that is about parenting, but really about everything else.

0:16.1

It's been so long, I feel like, and can I just tell you, and I have iced coffee, by the way, it's

0:22.0

decath. We have a lot to catch up on. Okay, we have a lot to catch up on. And in the effort to be

0:26.6

as honest as possible, I think that I need to share it with you. So this is going to be a catch up

0:30.9

episode in what's been going on, why podcast episodes have not been steady and just life in general and the fact that sometimes

0:42.1

we need to make allowances for stepping out of this mentality that things have to happen right

0:48.6

then and there and we're going to miss the opportunity. And if we miss it, it's never coming

0:52.4

again because it's a journey that I'm on

0:55.7

right now and I think that you might be able to relate to it. So I'm excited. I'm going to be recording

1:03.8

my prayer after I finish this is to record a couple of episodes so I can drop some because you all

1:09.1

know we're getting ready to go to

1:10.9

Disneyland. But what I want to talk to you about today is the fact that something I didn't know

1:16.5

when I was starting therapy. And that is that when you're doing therapy work, no matter what

1:22.2

your trauma looks like, like can we just get over this idea that if you haven't had some like

1:25.4

earth-shattering thing happen in your

1:27.7

life, that that isn't traumatic and you don't need any type of assistance for it.

1:31.8

Like, let's just remove this idea that trauma has to be leveled up or comparative, or if it

1:38.6

isn't earth-shattering for everyone around you or in the scheme of world events and movies you

1:43.6

see, like if it's not

1:44.6

that, it's not trauma. Let's take that expectation out. And let's just say that things can be

1:50.5

traumatic for us in different ways. Now, does that mean that other people have to immediately

1:55.4

understand our trauma and be very aware of it? No. Does it mean that if we want to share it with

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