He Stared In 1,000+ Adult Films… Now He's a Christian.
The Deep End With Lecrae
Lecrae
4.8 • 602 Ratings
🗓️ 26 February 2026
⏱️ 86 minutes
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Summary
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Joshua Broome grew up in a small South Carolina town of 3,000 people, the son of two 15-year-olds who never dated, and watched his father through a restaurant window for years without ever hearing his voice. That father wound sent him chasing significance all the way to Hollywood, where he became one of the most prominent adult film stars in the industry under the name Raquel Reed, appearing in over a thousand films.
But behind the fame was a man quietly unraveling. In this raw and unflinching conversation with Lecrae, Joshua pulls back the curtain on what the adult film industry actually looks like from the inside, the suicidal ideation that nearly ended his life, a sexual assault in Paris he never told anyone about, and the moment a bank teller said his real name for the first time in 18 months and changed everything.
Now a pastor, husband, and father, Joshua talks about what healing actually looks like after trauma, why porn has nothing to do with sex and everything to do with intimacy, and how a woman named Hope and a heavenly Father gave him back his identity. This one goes deep. Don't say we didn't warn you!
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Chapter Markers
0:00 - Cold Open
1:17 - Introducing Joshua Broome
3:06 - Growing Up Fatherless
8:03 - First Exposure to Porn & the Spiral Begins
14:44 - Chasing Fame in Hollywood
21:26 - How He Got Recruited Into the Adult Film Industry
28:47 - The Reality on Set
40:08 - When Reality Started Breaking Through
43:30 - 47 Friends Dead: The Industry's Hidden Toll
45:16 - The Night in Paris & Suicidal Ideation
51:47 - The Bank Teller Who Said His Real Name
55:39 - Hearing the Gospel for the First Time
58:46 - The Real Work of Healing
1:00:21 - Marriage, Hope & Fighting the Lies
1:10:22 - The Depth of Confession
1:13:14 - What People Don't Know About the Adult Film Industry
1:19:10 - Becoming a Father & Forgiving His Own Dad
1:24:53 - Miscarriage, New Life & Choosing Hope Over Fear
1:27:28 - Closing: Tell Somebody
Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | I was gonna bartend shirtless at this spot. |
| 0:02.0 | I ended up getting drugged and raped. |
| 0:05.0 | I never told anybody. |
| 0:07.0 | And the only way that I saw forward was to die. |
| 0:13.0 | Mmm. |
| 0:15.0 | Like, I didn't know how to be a man. |
| 0:17.0 | I performed in England in theaters in front of 10,000 people. |
| 0:20.0 | They would have like a theater |
| 0:21.5 | that was full of people and that have a live origin. But if a man would look me in the eye and |
| 0:26.6 | shake my hand, that's me out. Why is that? I felt like you saw me. Because you don't just go from, |
| 0:33.1 | I got a girlfriend in high school to I'm an adult film star. I'm going to say something heavy. |
| 0:39.3 | That's what they're here for. So... |
| 0:40.3 | How has Satan tried to rise up in this new marriage that you have with your past? |
| 0:45.3 | A girl looked at my wife and said, |
| 0:48.3 | How do you not wrestle with comparison? |
| 0:50.3 | Knowing all the people that he's been with, how does that not bother you? |
| 0:53.3 | She just said, well, I choose not to speak to myself the way that he's been with, how does that not bother you? She just said, |
| 0:55.2 | well, I choose not to speak to myself |
| 0:57.1 | the way that Satan does. |
| 0:59.2 | That's powerful. |
| 1:00.2 | There was a time in my life |
| 1:01.6 | where there was an HIV outbreak |
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