You got this.

The first thing I wrote down in preparation to talk about this publicly, the first thing I could think of was to write down was I just wrote the sentence.

I'm so proud of myself.

Because in this time, from the minute we found out the news, I have leaned into the grief.

I have leaned into every emotion that I've felt.

I have not used any crutch to numb or avoid this,

which I totally understand why people would in this situation.

But it was really important to me to feel everything and walk through everything

and even be proactive in this grieving journey as much as I could.

And I'm proud of myself for that.

The first step in that was honestly just deleting social media because I think it's really

easy to like scroll and like use social media

as a Xanax and just like numb myself out. And there's several ways you can numb yourself. You can numb yourself

with busyness or like, you know, trying to just keep going and keep muscling through things and just

distracting yourself. obviously you could use

substances you can do so many things to numb out and i can say that i have not done that and it has been

really healing i know that i have a long ways to go but um this time i've spent off social media off of my regular schedule, not working, like all

this stuff. I've like, I've done lots of alone time. Yeah. I'm really proud of you. I mean,

sorry to interrupt, but like the day that we found out this horrible news, you deleted all social

media off your phone. You just took precautions right away to just protect your mental health, protect yourself,

keep yourself from numbing out, which I was like, wow.

I mean, the discipline to do that when feeling numb is probably, I mean,

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