I'm in a I'm in a state today I'm I yes I am in a literal and figurative state

It's so I don't know I've just been kind of feeling like I need to to rest and it for a little bit

You know, I've been pushing real hard need to rest and granted I've still like that's like oh still like

Clean an hour or two in the day because we've been decluttering and it's great

But like got a rest from that because that's a lot of work

So I've been needing to rest and just you know what and this is something Charlie you and I were both kind of on this journey with

I'm gonna fucking re-listen to twilight

I'm not gonna read twilight cuz I'm not gonna fucking

D-roll my days like that. I'm gonna listen to it as I function and do other things and not

Lose time staring at those pages. Yes

so I did and

I listened to all of twilight. I listened to all of twilight and now I'm I am balls deep. I am so

Deep in the midnight sun right now and

I just I wanted to describe you this was why I was late Charlie and I wanted to set this scene for you

Okay, go. Yes

So I'm having every like a few times a year

I'll have like these weird body flares to where it's like every part of my body just hurts my skin hurts

My like pain points hurts like my rhomboids hurt extra more than they normally do and like all my things that hurt my lower back

Hurts more than everything just hurts a lot and I'm very tired. It makes me very asleep lame

And that's it's like it's weird, you know

And I've gotten my markers checked before and I don't have like an inflammatory thing

That's why the doctors are always like well it sounds like five or a mile to but like we don't really know

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