Hi everyone and welcome to episode 96 of the Holding Court podcast.

This one is going to be a tough one for me, but I'm an attempt to work through the end of the season. So let's do some group therapy. What do you say? All coming up right now on Holding Court. Boom, bum, bum, bum, bum bum. Bala bum bum bum bum bum bum oh i honestly find myself

making that sound anytime anyone asks how i am how we're doing i'm going to do a solo episode today

i've talked about before how i talked to myself all day long. So I feel like I've

worked my whole life for this. But this season, if you don't know, welcome out from under the rock,

not Dwayne Johnson, like the rock that you were living under. But I don't know what it was. This

end of the season felt so much more painful than the other ones that have

ended quickly. I feel like the expectations were just so high and I don't know. I kept saying,

everyone kept saying like this was the most incredible team. I think I even remember saying,

if this team can't win, show me a team that can because I feel like the talent, the chemistry,

everything was all there. But playoffs are such a crapshoot. And it's really so much who's

kind of rolling and like that momentum and that kind of X factor, which I won't say the team

didn't have. I don't even know. I don't even want to talk about the on field stuff because everyone watched the games. I'll leave that to a certain newspaper reporter

to dissect in a respectful manner, as they always do. But I'm just going to speak to my experience

and kind of offer a little insight into what it's like for us to go through

this with the podcast and with a lot of things with I've talked about it not wanting it to be

tied to baseball or Justin's career as much as it was. I know it was born through COVID and

Justin kind of became my co-host and we shared

our quarantine experience and I love, absolutely love having him on here with me to kind of work through

a lot of the things that we go through in baseball and just life as a married couple. But this one,

it's tough. I wanted to do it by myself and, you know, honestly, when things were going one, it's tough. I wanted to do it by myself. And, you know, honestly, when things

were going bad in the playoffs, I've talked about this before. I want to shut down the podcast.

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