Grieving the Baby Stage

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Cameron Oaks Rogers

Motherhood, Mental Health, Cameronrogers, Freckledfoodie, Society & Culture, Health & Fitness, Nutrition, Parenting

4.7 • 1.5K Ratings

🗓️ 7 December 2022

⏱️ 24 minutes

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Summary

In this solo episode, I share all of the raw and overwhelming feelings I’m experiencing right now while grieving my son’s baby stage at eighteen months. I explore the heartache and anxiety around the passage of time, the confusion of feeling nostalgic for the present, and explain why the newborn phase wasn’t exactly my thing. I also give my mother an impromptu call and get her perspective on embracing the simultaneous sadness and joy of time passing with children. Finally, I discuss still feeling like a child myself, and I remind myself and anyone who needs to hear it that every child’s stage is incredible and brings new things.

Key Takeaway / Points:

Why I love Liam’s toddler phase right now at eighteen months
On wanting to freeze time with your child as they are
Why the newborn phase wasn’t my thing
The heartbreak and anxiety around the passage of time
On the fear of not remembering important moments in your child’s life
On feeling nostalgic for the present
On not feeling ready to go through another pregnancy right now
On being overwhelmed with the amount of family footage and having so much personal content to keep track of in today’s world
On my simultaneous excitement for Liam’s future
Calling my mother and getting her perspective on embracing the sadness and joy of time passing with children
On still feeling like a child myself

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0:00.0	The following podcast is a deer media production.
0:03.2	This is one of those solo episodes where I have no notes in front of me and we are just going to
0:10.1	treat this like therapy. So welcome to my therapy session about how I'm grieving my baby while
0:22.9	he is still in existence and simultaneously while I am so excited for the future. I guess
0:31.0	this should say grieving my baby's stage just recently. I don't know this has felt like really fresh
0:38.4	for me and I've talked a lot about it with you guys and a lot of you are going through this as well
0:43.7	like even a real eye posted kind of not blew up but got like a ton of views because I think it's a
0:49.3	very common theme for a lot of moms who are experiencing this and I don't know if everyone
0:56.0	experiences this or what but I can only speak to my lived current experience is that
1:02.8	he's 18 months old at the time that I'm recording this and I fucking love this face. I'm having
1:10.0	so much fun with him. He has so much energy. He's walking. He's so verbal. He is such a personality
1:16.2	like he's able to kind of speak his needs and it's so much fun and I'm like God this just keeps
1:21.4	getting better and better and you're my best friend and I have so much fun with you and I want to
1:26.2	do everything with you. However at the same time I'm like what happened to my baby and I'm not
1:34.7	someone who even like loved the newborn phase really like I thrived in that first six week period
1:43.3	because it was just us all we had to do was focus on making sure everyone eats left and
1:48.0	shot and that was it but then the baby phase wasn't like a really my thing like the holding up of
1:55.1	the neck they're having to be so gentle the like I don't know they're what it's like a one way street
2:01.5	you know they're not smiling they're not giving a much back they're just kind of like a potato
2:06.0	and some people love the newborn phase and some people don't I was kind of indifferent but I love
2:11.2	the toddler phase so that's why I'm surprised I feel this way but with each day passing I'm like
2:18.3	I'm losing my baby and I literally I'm gonna cry right now just thinking about it like that one
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