Into the wild I am, it's been in the wild I am. It's been a while,

I am. It's been a while freedom child since I left my roots back home. Into the wild I'm going into the wild I head. It's been a while freedom child since I let my roots

back home. Welcome to the Free Birth Society podcast. This is a radical space for women who are ready to celebrate their autonomous choices in birth, motherhood, and beyond.

Together, we'll learn about wild birth through personal narrative,

we'll explore the politics of birth and we'll analyze everything that relates to

our lives as women from a feminist perspective. Here's your host, Emily Salder.

It's been a wild freedom child.

Since I love my rules back home. After pregnancy loss and a break up,

and a breakup, Samantha begins a journey with a new relationship to call in her baby.

This is a powerful story of a brave woman who used her anxiety as a flag for what to move towards and away from.

It's the story of a woman who committed to following her instincts in spite of a nervous partner

and it's a story of the quiet strength of a wild woman becoming a fierce mother.

Okay so I, with my ex-husband, we tried to get pregnant for a year and a half and I had, and we ended up getting pregnant and I had, we ended up getting pregnant and I had two I had one miscarriage and one

chemical pregnancy and the only reason I really knew about that the second one was

because I was obsessively peeing on pregnancy tests and going to like get my blood drawn to see if I had any HCG in my blood, which most of the time I did not.

It was, I was very like obsessed about it and just, like, it was all I could think about and like it just,

it wasn't, it wasn't fun, it wasn't fun it wasn't enjoyable and so after the

miscarriage we sort of stopped connecting and our relationship really was not good to start with and so we we split up and got divorced and I

Gosh I think I lived on my own for five or six months when I met my now husband and from the beginning we talked to my babies from like I don't know second day third day because it was something that I wanted and he has two

children from two previous relationships we have a 10 and a half year old and an 18 year old

which is a huge gap compared to her baby.

And so we always talked about Leonel starting a family and what that would look like.

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