Okay, so today is Monday, January 27th, 2020. It is the day after we found out that

Kobe Bryant was killed in a sudden and unfortunate

helicopter accident just outside of LA in Malibu Canyon

along with I believe it was nine total on that helicopter.

Two girls 13 years of age, one being his daughter,

Gianna.

I'm just going to tell you at the top here that this is not going to be the most eloquent

post or the most eloquent podcast. I'm just, if anything, I'm doing this really for myself in a very selfish way to hopefully make sense out of all of this because

I've been internalizing this a lot haven't really had a chance to talk about it outside of a few texts with friends who are also fans and

And it's it's hard. It's hard. I've never cried as much at the passing of somebody since I lost my dad back in 2004 and I'm including my grandmother since just the wave of emotion

the river of tears have just kept pouring out in unexpected times, you know yesterday in particular was interesting. in

particular was interesting and challenging because every Sundays I

I help out out our family business to retail business

in like the West Hollywood Beverly Hills area and

like I I had to go in from and help out from like 2 PM to 10 PM and like half of that shift I had to wear sunglasses which is weird if you walk

into a store and see somebody behind the counter with sunglasses on can be a little it can be a little

unnerving but maybe people understood or maybe they didn't really care. But it was tough. I was, I had on the coverage and I just

kept every memory, every incredible Lakers memory in the past would spark some emotion or and in particular any photo of him sitting court side with his 13 year old

Gianna who had a lot of promise in the sport,

who was really curious and interested

in the sport of basketball,

who had a bright future, most likely in the NBA itself, itself I'm the W MBA rather and those just

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