back. It's just ignorance. You just don't know. But sometimes you bloody well know and you do

the thing you know you shouldn't do anyways. That happens a lot. And why do you do that?

Spite is part of it. It's stupidity. There's all sorts of reasons, but you certainly know you do it.

So Jeanette's in thought, okay, well what would happen if I took responsibility for where I am in

this concentration camp? And then I went over my whole life and tried to figure out all the things

I did that were wrong by my own estimation that increased the probability that I would get here.

And then what would happen if I tried to set them all right now in the present?

And that's why he wrote like Archipelago and one of the consequences of that as I said was

it's sped the dissolution of the Soviet Empire. So hey that's not bad, hey like you make a real confession.

You really repent. You do your penance which is writing this book and you completely change the

geopolitical landscape of the world. It's like and that's worth thinking about because it's not

only Solzhenitson who did that. Nelson Mandela did something quite similar. It's not so impossible.

And so the idea that what you should do if you're feeling resentful about the nature of being

or suffering too much for your own life let's say is straighten the damn thing out.

Like seriously try it for a year even try it for a week try not doing the things you know you

shouldn't do try not saying the things you know to be false and just watch what happens. You might

as well give it a shot right because you say well I'm all in for a year you know I'm gonna do

things right and then I'll just stand back and I kind of watch how things unfold and maybe all

reconsider at the end of that year. It's like try it. Try it. I mean I would say I've had thousands

of letters now from people who are saying hey I tried that you know and hey you know what

I read this great line in a T.S. Eliot playing called the cocktail party and in it this woman

comes up to a psychiatrist and she says you know I'm having a really rough time of it I'm suffering

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