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Welcome to Rumble Strip America Heilman. Fair warning. This story involves suicide.

He'd write little notes to find and we're places, you know, he'd write notes on logs.

So when we would, you know, in the winter, deep in the winter, go out to get wood for the fire, there'd be like a, hi mamaama I love you I found one of them this summer I was afraid I was

afraid I was going to but also really wanted to I couldn't decide which way I wanted to go with that.

He just recognized coziness and was always trying to to create that what you know the blanket felt like was

important or like let's get our but jamas on you know and let's you know we make cookies he just recognized the importance of little things you could do to make day-to-day life so much exponentially better.

And he was determined to do that all the time. He appreciated leaving the light on all night so there would be a

bunch of moths in the morning. Or he appreciated a perennial garden and would say, look at their perennial garden you know or

or a compost pile a perfect song being played at the perfect time.

What did he look like?

He, um, he wasn't very tall, he was five, seven, or he had long, he, when he was little, he had really

long hair, like down close to, you know, his hip bones probably and then as a teenager he would let it grow you

know down past his shoulders cut it let it grow long again.

But then,

about a month before he died, he cut it.

That's something I think about a lot. Yeah. That's Tara Finn's mother. Finn Rooney killed himself on January 3rd, 2020 in the afternoon after school.

This story will not explain why he did this,

as if anyone can explain why a person takes his own life.

Suffice to say that not a single person in his life predicted this. There were no signs.

The closest one can say is that there was a flash of high emotion that comes with youth and there was a gun nearby and bullets.

This is not a story about suicide.

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