So this

young woman with the year and it just stayed with me. I found it really haunting,

especially the pictures of this young woman with wide luminous eyes

in a woolly hat with a stuffed pink dinosaur under her arm. So I got in touch

with Sandra Paulus a correspondent at the Dutch network RTL News and what you hear in the next half hour on assignment is the result of our

collaboration. The whole idea of euthanasia is challenging in so many ways but I hope you'll stay with us. And if, well, maybe like isn't the right

word, but if you're engaged and moved by what you hear in the next half hour, perhaps

you'll have a moment to rate us with your podcast provider.

This is Arrelia's story.

I'm going to Arle Brawers, we're not in here.

My name is Aorellia Brawers. I'm 29 years old and I've chosen voluntary euthanasia. I've chosen this because I have a lot of

mental health issues. I suffer unbearably and hopelessly. Every breath I take is torture.

In January this young Dutch woman drank poison and lay down to die.

Doctor assisted suicide in euthanasia illegal in the Netherlands, so hers was a death sanctioned by the state. I'm Linda Presley and in this

week's assignment on the BBC World Service we explore complex terrain ending the life

of someone with psychiatric illness.

Arrelia's death is exceptional.

Euthanasia is against the law in most countries.

You may find what you hear in this program upsetting.

This is the story of our Rely Abraas.

When I was 12, I suffered from depression and when I was first diagnosed they told me I had borderline personality disorder.

Then other diagnoses followed attachment disorder, chronic depression, I'm chronically suicidal, I have anxiety, psychosis, I hear voices.

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