In 2018, I was struggling to find a job after I had just lost one, and a week before

our son was born, I got a call and I got a new job, and our is me and my then wife.

The birth was incredible. We embraced each other and cried together. We had the perfect relationship

on the surface, I suppose. By July of the next year, 2019, I was asking my wife for divorce.

I had started up an emotional affair with a coworker, and my reaction was to take a leap

and to dive headfirst into a divorce and a relationship with someone who didn't settle the right

things at the moment. Fast forward to now, I professed my love to my ex. I want my family back

desperately, and I asked my affair partner to move out. We had gotten engaged in 2021. I have told

all this to my ex, and she has asked her boyfriend to move out, and we've just been slowly

texting each other. She asked me to go for coffee. She said she wants to know 100%, yes, or 100%

no, but what I'm struggling with now is this idea of redemption. I don't like myself right now,

and what I did to her, and I don't know that redemption is even possible.

So, hi.

Hello, hello. What I understand so far is that you are in a transition.

Very much so.

You are hoping to be able to reunite with your ex-wife. You were together for about seven years.

Yeah, I married seven together, 13.

And the last time you were in a transition, you had just had a new job, you had a child,

you had a new house, and you let it all go, you fell in love with another woman,

you instigated a rather expedient divorce, you have been with this other woman since,

and at the moment of the next transition, which was to marry this new woman, you freaked out,

and you realized that that's not at all what you wanted.

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