Hey Esther, so in the last couple years, I had a relationship that was basically an emotional roller coaster of like the best of everything at the beginning and then kind of really just turned into absolutely nothing.

And now six, eight months after stopping contact with this person completely, I feel destroyed from it

and that I'm like worthless and incredibly replaceable. And I know other women have had the same

exact experience with this person. But also, I really truly felt so much hope at the beginning

of my relationship with him, and I thought that I was different, I was special, and he really did

make me feel that way, and I'm not the kind of person who just goes into any relationships

or likes that many people. It's really pretty hard for me to. And I'm 44 now,

and I started this relationship with him when I was 42. He's 10 years younger than me. I was

confident and happy at the time, but also had given up on finding love, and he offered so much.

And for a minute, it felt really great and there was so much promise. And then it really started to dissolve in this way. And it also

dissolved at the same time as my father was dying and he died. And then everything really kind of came to a head of like just knowing

this person is absolutely wrong for me and not the person I thought he was and it took another

year for me to really end things with him three months later he's engaged to a new person, and I don't know

how to, like, bounce back, and I don't know if I can trust anybody ever again, and I want to,

because I want a partnership. I want long-lasting love, and that was the main reason I ended

things with him, because I knew it wasn't going to happen with him.

And I still want that, but I don't know that I can trust anybody anymore.

I'm going to be able to be. Wow.

And the question is... I mean, how do I trust myself, people, the idea?

I don't know. It's hard.

It's hard to listen to it too, yeah?

Yeah, yeah.

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