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All right, so I'm Anna, I'm an alcoholic, thank you Hilary Hayan, thank you Hilary for

asking me to speak.

I somehow got it confused that I was supposed to speak today so I spent like the last 24

hours actually preparing and then thought that I, and then was like, oh I guess I'm not.

So God works in wonderful and mysterious ways also, which is so funny because I was

so sort of worked up about it and in alcoholism and then I had this whole free afternoon where

it was like, oh I'm not speaking and then it was Hilary called and I was like, oh I am,

it's a good thing that that happens.

So it's really good to be here in a prime time meeting and prime time is AA.

I was in non prime time AA for a number of years, for about four and a half years and you

know really, I was sober and I was dying from alcoholism and I didn't know what alcoholism

really was, I thought that I did and what I found is that I didn't.

So I was suffering from a lot of anxiety, a lot of depression, a lot of, you know, neurotic

repetitive mind function and so when I came to prime time I started to learn about what

the disease of alcoholism actually is and this is outlined, you know, in Bob Anderson's

work as well as in the big book to some degree but it really is a neurotic mind function.

So you know, when I wake up in the morning, if I start to pay attention to this, I have

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