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Episode 695.

Flashback Friday.

This is as I wish to be restored.

By Kristi Yant. I'm goingistair. Welcome back to a skate pod. It's August 29th and it's time for our flashback Friday of the month.

Once a month, I pop along to the pod and walk you through one of the best stories from our frankly

astoundingly large back catalogue and throw some new light on it.

It gives me tremendous joy this month to do that with this is how I Wish to be Restored, written by Christy Yant and Red by Mr Lee.

We first published this story five years ago on April 19th, 2014.

And without further ado, it's story time.

This is as I wish to be restored by Christiand.

Every night I come home and I drink.

I trade away the hope, the guilt, the fear, even the love. I think it's love, as crazy as it seems.

I trade them for oblivion, because otherwise I won't sleep at all. I drink until there's no life left in me.

Until I'm able to forget just for a little while the chrome vessel in the corner

and what's at stake.

Sometimes I hope that I'll dream of her.

Sometimes I'm afraid that I will.

I have two things that belong to her. The first is a photograph taken at a party in what looks like a hotel.

Her hair is dyed red. It doesn't quite suit her. So you know it isn't hers. It's like an unexpected note and a melody where you thought you knew where it was going and then it went sharp.

She's holding a glass of something pink and bubbly, maybe it's her birthday. If so, it's probably her 28th.

She's laughing. She was really young to be a client, especially back then.

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