Every decision that I made from that point forward had one of two ways to go.

And one was going to lead to me killing myself.

And one was going to lead to me living.

Sometimes you can seem to do pretty much everything right in life.

You give to others. You live with compassion. You love with every fiber of your being.

And you fill your days with work that you love. And by all rights,

the universe should just be rallying to support you. And you know what most days it does.

But then one day it seems to abandon you. It pushes you off a cliff and instead of flying,

it clips your wings and pulls the net out from under you. It thrusts you into chaos,

devastating loss, darkness so deep you wake up every day, wondering whether to move ahead

or to take your own life. How we handle those places, how we rediscover life.

That's what this week's episode is all about.

I'm Jonathan Fields. This is Good Life Project.

Our story begins with an old friend, Erin Moon. So Erin and I first met about 10 years

ago when she wandered into my yoga studio in Hell's Kitchen. Back then she was a working actor,

pretty much looking for free yoga. All I really remember was her smile made everybody smile.

She was also in love, she was living her dream. And that would last a while longer. But then in a

moment, everything would change. Fancy a fever tree and vodka. Yes, vodka, not gin,

because this is fever tree Mexican lime soda. Yes, soda, not tonic. With Mexican lime and Japanese

Yuzu for a zesty, refreshing lime soda that's just sweet enough, delicious with vodka or on its own.

Fever tree Mexican lime soda mixed with the best. Now that hits the spot.

We've known each other for 10 years, 12 years and like that. I think you wandered into

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