And what do you sacrifice?

Calm.

Kindness, kinship.

Love. I've given up all chance that interpment. kinship, love.

I've given up all chance at inner peace.

I made my mind a sunless space.

I share my dreams with ghosts.

I wake up every day to an equation I wrote 15 years ago

from which there's only one conclusion.

I'm damned for what I do.

My anger, my ego, my unwillingness to yield, my eagerness to fight

that set me on a path from which there's no escape.

I yearn to be a savior against injustice without contemplating the cost.

And by the time I look down, there was no longer any ground beneath my feet.

What is my, what is my sacrifice?

I'm condemned to use the tools of my enemy to defeat them.

I burned my decency for someone else's future.

I burned my life to make a sunrise that I know I'll never see.

Now the ego that started this fight will never have a mirror or an audience or the light of gratitude.

So what do I sacrifice? Everything! You'll stay with me, Lani.

I need all the heroes I can get.

Bhopin.

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