Pushkin.

I, so there's an ego part of you that's like why don't I have that or why is

is that would that is that would that make me happy but I see that that's ego I see that

that just the ego is I heard this thing the ego doesn't want to have it

wants to want so it wants it stays in this perpetually unsatisfied state of hunger.

And I've noticed from different people,

I know a lot of people who are at various stages of visibility,

it just never goes away. You know, you can be at the top, top, and you're

still like pissed off that, you know, Will Smith's getting your roles or whatever, you know,

and it's kind of like showbiz is rigged for your dissatisfaction,

and you have to decide like where you're going to draw your juice from,

like what's going to sustain you.

And like the thing that's making me the happiest is learning how to play

guitar and writing songs is like literally like I can't it's my happy place like

when Ben comes over and we're writing or I'm writing on my own like I feel

successful that was my own like I feel successful. That was Josh Radner, I'm Sam Fregoso and this is

Talk Easy. Welcome to the show. I woke up this morning thinking about my freshman year of college. It wasn't long ago or anything,

but around that time in my first semester of school, I had what I guess will call my first true

girlfriend, I think that's a fair thing to say, and something she introduced me to was the show called How I Met Your Mother.

I've never seen it before and the more I think about it the more I'm convinced

that every relationship has a few default shows that they go to, you know, the times when you

really can't pick anything to watch and you need to put something on instead of just like

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