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First part of life is about trying to escape from the conditions of birth,

recognizing that there are material restrictions and then feeling that maybe social and cultural

routes will provide a solution.

Maybe if I become a star, if I have material means,

if I can get myself to Hollywood, if I can become a stand-up comedian,

if those things play out for me, maybe I'll be okay.

But all the while, as a drug addict, first of all,

and then a recovering drug addict,

recognizing there has to be a greater spiritual

solution. And because I'm a drug addict in recovery and because I'm from an ordinary background

there in the UK, recognizing that there seem to be these systems of authority and control

that you have to navigate and negotiate and deal with, even if these are simple little things

like school and law and order and that they claim moral and ethical supremacy, but you see that

perhaps they're being controlled by other ulterior or somehow transcendent systems.

Then, you know, for a minute, the hedonism is enough, the drugs are enough, the promiscuity and the access to

favours and delights and pleasures and distractions and prestige are enough. But because of that

sort of spiritual yearning that any recovering drug addict or alcoholic will know, any seeker will

know, there's a kind of sense that this is not it. This was never it. Of course, success, personal individual success

is never going to be enough. All the while amidst this, I'm still occupying peripheral spaces

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