Tracy, okay. First of all, you're probably going to cry and say you're not strong enough and this is too much.

This is a letter that the FBI forensic search extracted from Jill Blackstone's computer.

You're plenty strong enough and the only one I trust to do this.

Or you're pretty mad and thinking I'm selfish.

Could you just do me a favor and put a pin in that?

There will be time later for blame and judgment.

The letter sounds like a suicide note.

Believe me. I wish I could have taken care of everything myself and spared everyone the drama of this,

but I had to keep this to myself and there was only so much I could do in advance.

I would have cleaned, organized, and packed more, but I was afraid of calling undue attention to the situation.

So, logistics first.

As for the stuff in the house, the overall theme is this.

No waste.

Donate whatever possible. Please take Wendy's hearing aids and return them to

Tower audiology at Cedar City.

Jill not only left specific instructions on what to do with her and Wendy's belongings, but she also

wrote several pages listing phone numbers of family, friends, and doctors who should be notified

of her death.

She rewrote this letter several times, finally ending on this as her last paragraph.

This has been my plan for a very, very long time.

I explored every avenue I could think of to try and find help. I don't think anyone

could understand what it's been like to live this life, to realize that Wendy's

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