But anyway, I said, I said, I said, I judged you.

And she said, for what?

I said, just for everything you did, like I just made you wrong.

And there was silence on the other end of the phone.

And I said, I love you.

And in the moment of saying I love you to her,

like, I realize it was the first time I told her I'd loved her since I was about 12.

Wow. It had been so long and it was like an untapped well like I cried. She said I love you too baby.

Wow. And it was like stunning.

It was like this world opened up between her and I that hadn't been there in, you know know 30 years like all that had been there was this surfacy

shoddy relationship that I had been tolerating and blaming on her.

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disclaimers.

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I want to simultaneously encourage you to be brave

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I'm not your psychologist and I'm not your therapist. This is not intended to be direct medical

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