F**K THE GAME!

Alright, let's do this. How are you? What the fuckers? What the fuck buddies?

What the fuck nicks? What's happening? I am Mark Marin. This is my podcast.

WTF.

Welcome to it. It's been okay the last few days. I don't know how up to speed those of you tuning in are with the where I'm at but I'm within the grief tunnel.

It's coming up on two months on Saturday since Lynn Shelton passed away and it's something is changing. How are you guys? You know I look I'm not gonna make a life out of grief but it seems you know I seem to be you know in it monitoring it and and feeling the feelings.

I don't want to neglect you guys I don't want to forget the to tell you that on the show today Helen Mirren is here Oscar Emmy BAFTA and Tony award winning actress.

The amazing Helen Mirren the stunning and profoundly talented Helen Mirren. She's on this HBO thing this Catherine the great limited series but she's been in a lot of stuff and I actually watched her.

I was kind of going through her stuff and I realized she was in an old movie. That I saw when it came out at the art house. In Albuquerque New Mexico it was called Long Good Friday it was a relatively contemporary I guess it was probably the early eighties modern English gangster movie with Bob Hoskins.

And she's the female lead and she's great but Hoskins is just to work with that guy just what an animal man just you know fierce fucking seething presence.

There aren't that many seething presences but I was lucky I was fortunate it was on the criterion channel.

Which I watch and I'm going to watch a Lola that completes the trilogy of whatever that was Veronica Vos the marriage of Maria Braun and Lola the fast-bender movies I didn't know is a trilogy.

But I talked to my buddy Tracy Letz. I'll drop a couple names he's been very nice to me during this time of sadness talking through it.

Experience something similar in his life been very helpful in my chemical call tonight even. Staying in touch with the people that's the hard to the hard stuff the hard part about the grieving is that you know I'm it's the aloneness a bit.

But like you know Tom Sharpling came over for dinner the other night and I've been hiking with my pal Al Madrigal going up the hill talking about stuff gossiping a little bit things get limited you know and everybody's not doing much the gossip and you know what you what you can talk about there's not a lot of fresh news around and you know in terms of the macro that can't that's never good anymore.

It's fucking paralyzing out here just you know managing the existential despair and terror of whatever the fuck is happening and just watching people snap it's it's amazing the consistency of these belligerent ignorant dumb dumbs who just refuse to take care of themselves or others by really simply you know wearing a dumb mask indoors

so they don't get sick and they don't get other sick with this thing escalating but these people really some of these people just really kind they're going to die on this hillman this was the freedom fight that they were going to fight this mass business and when they lose it I've watched three or four videos of women in supermarkets and target stores and I just watched one of a guy I've watched two of a guy it is literally like watching and I don't have any idea what I'm going to do.

I'm thinking I don't have children but I'm saying I'm thinking a three year old a three to five year old temper tantrum in the body of a grown person ranting and raving about it's usually doesn't even make sense it's just like something snaps in their head and has to do with a mask and it represents a lot of things.

Freedom God you know didn't intend to just a confusion of a conspiratorial garbage and right wing talking points and some Christian and times business just mashed up in sort of just kind of blurts and usually there's a physical activity.

A child is physical activity throwing groceries on the floor taking things off a rack something snaps inside these people and I think you really get to see who they are emotionally at the core of whatever ideological insanity they've allowed their brain to be program with.

Inside three to five years old and I would imagine until actually some of them close to that as well and I don't want to be condescending but just watch those things this is not grown up behavior.

It's just it's like you know just stubborn children being told to do something healthy and just like no no no no very exciting.

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