Welcome to episode 112 with my guest, Child Protective Services Worker Ray.

I'm Paul Gilmarten, this is the Metal Illness Happy Hour, 90 minutes of honesty about all

the battles in our heads for medically diagnosed conditions and past traumas to everyday

compulsive negative thinking.

The show's not meant to be a substitute for professional metal counseling, it's not

a doctor's office, it's more like a waiting room that doesn't suck.

The website for this show was mentalpod.com, please go there, fill out the surveys, let

us get to know you a little bit better.

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I actually had to ban somebody from the forum this week and it was, I think it was the

first time I had to do that other than a spamer.

It really kind of broke my heart and this person got really fucking mean and personal with

me and like used every personal detail that I've revealed on the show, not every, but

the ones that were the most difficult for me to talk about, this person used them against

me and a series of emails and it was hard to remember that this person is just feeling

overwhelmed by their situation and they're lashing out because the things that they

were writing were the voices of doubt and self-criticism that I have in my head and there's

a pretty fucked up couple of days, but thank God for friends that when they asked me

how I was doing, I told them how I was doing and it helped to talk about it, but I guess

that's the, that's the, the risk you take when you, when you podcast and you talk about

your life is that some people are going to use it against you.

I was at for a nice long awkward pause right after that.

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