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I've been tracking how much affection my wife gives me.

I think she's neglecting me.

So update three.

I decided to write an update on my story and let you know where things are going.

So I began my journey of shadow work on my own. I thoroughly read about

how to do it, studied everything carefully, and started confronting with much pain my past and

what I experienced in my family of origin. The first thing I realized was this very clingy and

needy part of me that craved love a bit too much. And I understood that a wounded and defenseless child

lived inside me. I realized I needed to embrace him, hold him, and take care of him myself,

as I was the only one who could give him unconditional and always available love. It might sound

strange, but realizing this allowed me to somehow talk to my deep self,

embrace him, and make him understand that now I comprehend. I am here. I protect and I am here for him.

I didn't realize that if he was talking about himself. Yeah, himself. Yeah, yeah. Well, this is like,

this is like parched work. Yeah. From that moment, I stopped seeking attention for my wife, a total reset, and with a new

love, I now know how to show myself, I feel calm, secure, and most importantly, no longer needy.

I stopped seeking my wife entirely. No kisses, no hugs, no sweet words, and zero conversations

initiated by me.

If she wants to, she can do it.

Otherwise, I am no longer interested.

I am happy with myself.

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