Good morning guys, happy Monday. Welcome back to its meetings. Today I want to talk to you

about something a little bit difficult, difficult for me at least and I know difficult for a lot of

us out there and that is family dynamics and I'm pretty private about my family dynamics so I'm going

to tread carefully because I want to be respectful of my family but this is something that affected

me so much when I was growing up and I wish that I had heard someone talk about it because I felt

very weird and I felt very alone and then I'm going to talk about what I call cottage cheese

moms because we also got a lot of questions about mother-daughter relationships and a lot of you very

kindly ask about my relationship with my mom and how it's so strong and then I'm also going to talk

about parent guilt because that is really difficult and complicated too. So let's talk about family

dynamics. When I was growing up I felt so weird because of my family's dynamic and I'm not going

to go into it too much again for just privacy and boundaries but I felt totally weird. I felt like

I had a secret. I felt like I had this shameful, shameful secret because I felt like my family

wasn't like anybody else's and I was embarrassed. I harbored this shame and embarrassment deep inside

myself for basically I would say until my mid-twenties and there are varying degrees to this right,

you know, people experience bad family dynamics in many different ways.

For me I think my relationship with my dad has, you know, it's very up and down. I love my dad,

I love my family very much but it just was this shameful thing for me and especially

to the point where I would like I would be worried to have my friends over because I thought that

they might, you know, see that there was this weird thing and whatever and when I went to college

I felt it even more acutely. I don't know why I just felt like all of my friends at Stanford had

these perfect families and what a fucking lie right because nobody's family is perfect. Everybody

has shit and it wasn't until I started talking to my friends for real like really, you know, getting

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