Hello everyone and welcome back. Welcome back to season 4 passing through the podcast.

I'm your host, Neca Julia and it feels so ridiculously good to be saying that again.

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I'm so excited for what's in store this season and without further ado let's get into episode one

of season 4. In this episode I explore the complexity of jealousy and insecurity in romance and how at

times I found repressing my feelings easier than learning how to communicate in healthy ways that

are the backbone of long lasting relationships. I hope you all enjoy episode one of season 4 passing

through jealousy. The shatter shot thundered through my spine. I glanced at my hands, trembling,

flushed, pulsing with a violent power I never knew existed. I picked up the fractured

black phone and threw it again and again and again until a thousand sharp veins spread violently

across its screen. Got it felt better than crying, better than shaking him awake and arguing

the evidence, better than screaming until my voice grew worse, better than asking who the fuck

Tasha was and why he'd never mentioned her. See, misery loves company but jealousy works alone,

it stalks its prey, eating with its eyes, believing everything it sees. I want it's always hungry,

insatiable, sucking marrow from the barest bones of betrayal. That night it hovered over my shoulder,

leaned in, burst its lips to my ear and whispered. You've been good,

in two years you've never gone through his phone, it's curiosity and no more. If it's nothing you'll

find nothing but don't you think you deserve to know. I grabbed the phone, flipped it over. My heart

raced, fingers typed the passcode, unlocked, home screen messages, nothing, names I recognized,

friends, then, flesh, an unknown number. I clicked, scrolled up, devoured. And mind you,

it could have been a colleague, his friend who got a new number, a cousin, it didn't fuck it

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