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super train at check out. A better web starts with your website. Hello. Hi John. Hi John. Hi, Merlin. How's it going?

Oh, super good. I'm tired. Yeah, I'm sorry I'm a little late. It's it's the tired season.

Yeah, it is. So you had, well we shouldn't say, but you had trouble getting your kid somewhere today.

Ah, you know, just normal stuff, just normal human adulthood stuff. It takes longer and longer all the time.

Yeah, you wake up in the morning and you're like here it is. Here I am. This is it. This is it the nadir

Really? Well, yeah because you know when you're young you're like oh, it's one of these days.

It's all gonna make sense, it's all gonna come together.

Yeah.

And then when you're old, you're like,

I don't remember. It's the nadir for now I feel I feel amazing I'm on medication I don't remember

anything before two days ago but now right here it's like oh this is it. Oh man. Right I am in it. I am here. I am in my

40s just right in the middle of it and it's not gonna there's you know it's not

gonna get any different no I don't know I've been having fun lately I've been

enjoying kid stuff a lot lately

I mean you know it's a it work not work. It's a lot of it's a lot of grind

But you know a lot of it's a lot of grind but you know a lot of grind yeah grists

grist I'm trying to think that the basis for most midlife male midlife crises

might come out of a lack of gratitude or a perceived lack of gratitude. From other people for all the hard work that we do.

Yeah, I mean not like I actually deserve that but but when I notice myself in my lower moments, I'm like,

what, do do all these things?

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