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In the aftermath of a shocking crime, people always ask why?

Why would someone do something like that?

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My name is Louise. I live in Johannesburg, South Africa, from originally from Cape Town.

In roughly early 2004, I started having what seemed like I would blank out basically.

So I could be doing anything I might be in the middle of a sentence and I would just kind

of stop.

So it would seem like I was conscious, my eyes would be open, but I would essentially

be unconscious.

I did not know what this was.

At first I didn't particularly seem to bother me, but it started happening more and more.

Sometimes it was accompanied by what I would now describe as an aura.

So sort of a strange sensation almost physically inside my brain. It felt like having an

electric shock inside my brain.

For a while, we didn't do much about this.

I was about 16 at the time.

And my mother was of the opinion that this was happening because I was not managing my stress

levels sufficiently.

I am not entirely sure what that was supposed to mean.

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