Endor chapter two hey, I'm Ben Greenfield and I want to welcome you to this weekly release of

The chapters from my new book Endor which you can find out at getendor.com

Today's chapter is all about control and OCD

So I hope you enjoy it and here we go

chapter two control

I'm gonna come right out and admit it. I think I have OCD and no, no, no

I haven't actually been officially diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder

So nothing that dramatic, but I'm pretty sure I certainly have grown significantly in the past several years in certain OCD

Like tendencies which I've found seems to be quite common amongst my peers as we age and develop distinct habits rituals and routines that

While lending stability control and

Productiveness to one's life can reach a certain point to where those same habits become almost

Two-wrote and nonnegotiable often to the detriment of social life family life personal progression exploration creativity and learning

Experiencing new things in a free fun flowing manner and simply

Being instead of doing for example when I step back and analyze my own daily routine

I've noticed the development of several OCD like tendencies including feeling less than myself

Unless I fully complete a morning self-care and spiritual routine that includes strategies like meditation journaling facewashing oil pulling tongue scraping supplements foam rolling stretching breathwork and the like

Should I miss any component of this established morning routine which seems to have grown more and more elaborate over the years?

I simply feel a bit off the rest of the day with a negging worry at the back of my mind that it didn't

Stick to my morning routine or didn't do everything I could have done to optimize my body and brain for the day

Are these types of morning or evening rituals bad? Well, absolutely not actually don't know any successful productive people who don't have some kind of

Relatively structured and occasionally elaborate routine in both the morning and the evening

But when that routine dictates zero allowance for more free flowing activities such as random fun family

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