Welcome back to Part 2 of Private Parts with me, Liv Bentley and The Blushing Bride, Emily Blackwell.

Did you ever want to Harvey after you broke up?

Well, we went to Bali, we were filming.

Oh, you fucking, of course. Yeah, yeah. But, um, yeah, listen, if I bumped into Harvey,

there's, it wouldn't matter now. Like, it's... Yeah. No, I completely forgot about all that.

When was Barley two years ago? Yeah, yeah, we, we, I used to, we, I used to seem at filming quite a bit.

Um, but it was all fine, to be fair to, like, you used to, I used to, we, I used to see my filming quite a bit. Um, but it was all fine to be

fair to, like, you know, it does just, you know, it's weird, it's just, just, just get over it, don't you? Is there any scene that you actually, is there anything that's ever happened that you have watched back? What on gone, what am I doing? No, gone, actually,'s quite a great TV. Great TV? Yeah.

The only thing I can think of that went a bit more like viral was when I called May for Henry the age.

Oh yeah, that was hilarious. She was so pissed. I was holding her back. That was at wilderness

reserve. God, some of the shit that come out of my mouth and your mouth, like where did it come

from? I know. But I had this, I went through this moment of realizing I was slightly quicker after one drink. After two, I was screwed. And I had the downward smile. Yeah, yeah. That was a awful. And that's why I couldn't watch it back. So there were moments I thought, am I all right? I looked like I'm having a fucking stroke.

Slash, like that's stirring. There was a point, there was a tipping point for you. It was like, yeah. No, no, no, no. You didn't have to be locked up to get there. The first five years I hacked it. I think it's because I sort of would look young, kind of fresh, suddenly aged 100 years

had a shit ton of fillet and was just drinking through it.

Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. It wasn't, it's not, yeah. But you know what it was, I think towards the end, I really battled with what the fuck I was doing. And also I started my company. I really enjoyed, I really enjoyed Chelsea, but I enjoyed what Chelsea was before. I think I was losing touch with where it was. And like you were going off. Everyone's doing their own thing. Everyone was in relationships. And I was like, God, am I really still here? And that's when I felt sad about it because I was like, I really miss what we had. It was almost like the ending of an era kind of thing. Totally. And you know what? I think it,

especially as like, I know this sounds weird, but we are all self-employed, right? Which is,

people probably don't realize this. But I think a huge thing is where the hell do we go from here?

Like, how do we continue being, you know, putting our lives out there? How do we make money from here?

You know, it's scary. You've got to close doors in order for other ones to open though. And I think taking the jump, I think thinking about it is actually worse than what it is. So like for me, I was always scared. I thought, oh God, like no one's going to. I was the same. I was like, what do I do now?

So I think that's a big part, a huge part,

and that's what keeps you on the show for probably a little bit longer than you should be a hundred and then you kind of have an identity crisis because I remember at one point like everyone, and it's really not sweet but everyone's like, oh I fucking love you. I think because they see this sort of mouthy person and so I remember towards the end being like, my God, am I really this like mouthy, all, I'm so not like that. I'm like an at home, very cozy, chilled, calm person. But I think on the show, I was not that person in. So I was almost living like a double life for who the fuck out was I. I got to that point. And then I was like what I don't care about any of these situations. And I think, I actually got tucked off the show about four or five times.

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