I'm so high school, I never gave up, I was gonna lay down on the hill

All I would believe is some other things that he's made of

I will have everyone say, you have to give your son some time

And some time, and I'm done, I gave it to him, because I'll have everything

Good morning, and welcome to episode 770 of Effectively Wild

The Daily Podcast from baseballperspectus, presented by the Playindex at baseballreference.com

I am Ben Lindbergh of 538, joined by Sam Miller of baseballperspectus

Hello, yo, my award apathy has risen or sunk to the point where I didn't even look

at the results yesterday, I was getting ready to go to bed

And I remembered that there had been award results, and I thought of checking and I thought,

I'll look in the morning, and I looked, and I said, yeah, okay

I'm glad you brought this up, because I actually have reconsidered my position on awards apathy

I feel like what I expressed a week ago does not actually fairly reflect what I believe

I thought it did, but it doesn't

In fact, I think that it's not so much that I think that the awards matter any less than I used to

But rather that, and it's not that I even mind seeing lots of discussion about the awards

Even though I'm not all that interested, I think what it is is I dread having to comment myself on them

I think this is a defense posture where I don't want to comment on them

Like I'm content with them existing, and I'm worried that if I pay too much attention to it

It will be insisted by whatever, by either my own sense of obligation or by external forces

That I comment on them, and so really I fear the awards voting, I fear it then

But I actually don't think I have any negativity toward it other than as it affects my schedule

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