I really am a whore.

Like, I will do, if you pay me to dance in a chicken suit, I'll say how much.

But then I'll probably do it.

That's an easy gig, actually.

Hello, I'm Shannon Beveridge, and welcome to the Alphabet Club, a queer storytelling podcast where every other week I'll curate a personal essay by someone in our community.

Stories about desire, heartbreak, gender, sex, friendship, family, and becoming.

After the reading, we sit with it together, we talk about what it brings up, what it reflects

back to us, and why queer stories just hit different.

This week's essay is called Eat, Pray, Spank, and is written by writer, producer, and comedian

Tofer Kusimano.

Tofer is a creative director at Rowe and a co-founder of Daddy TV, where he makes shows like

For the Love of Dilfs, Slag Wars, Hot Hoss, and more. This essay is about reclaiming yourself

after a relationship where the expectation was for you to lose yourself in service of the other person.

It explores the author's deep relationship with role play, how it has helped him discover

himself and survive during the most challenging periods in his life, and how, at a BDSM

retreat in Palm Springs, roleplay served as a sexual reawakening and something akin to self-actualization

shortly after his divorce.

Content themes and warnings for this week's

episode are divorce, sex work, religious trauma, BDSM, and Kink. This week's essay will be read

by Jonah Wheeler. Jonah Wheeler is a pornographic actor and musician known for an enthusiastic

and expansive approach to queer sexuality. His video work includes

social media lessons in public cruising, explicit infomercials about alternative DOM

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