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I had to achieve, I had to be perfect. I guess I'll ultimately take on the suffering.

The flier of the tournament, Johnny Wilkinson.

Hey, genuine sporting legend.

Now that's pressure. Is this man being under this week?

For me it was due or die, I don't feel.

So therefore, where other people kind of called it quits and threw in the towel,

I didn't have the choice.

Here it is for Johnny! There's a go down in history.

Was your mental health better or worse after that moment?

When I was on the field in the zone, I was operating at a level I couldn't even understand.

Waking up the next morning, you know, leaves you in the cold light of day.

I thought there was going to be joy here as convinced there isn't.

I spent my life being very fit but not really that healthy.

Health is about what fitness can come out of.

Unless you look after health, it's dangerous.

People say I wish I'd made more of my life. I wish I'd enjoyed every moment.

But that starts with health.

Working on someone else really doesn't work for anyone.

Working on yourself tends to work for everyone.

So without further ado, I'm Stephen Bartlett and this is the Diary of a CEO.

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