Hello, everyone, it's me, Allison, how is it going?

I'm in Hawaii right now.

It's beautiful here and not the worst place to adjust to the reality that your father has

died.

Actually, some people have also been through that experience, well, specifically Alley Ward

was like, it might be nice to have like different sights and smells and stuff like that as you

just as the numbness wears off because that's what I'm realizing is that the very beginning

there was some numbness, which I think is it serves a purpose.

It helps you at the very beginning, but the first few mornings I would wake up with this

feeling of like, I'm okay, like I would look down and like check my limbs, like look

around, you know, the house and like, I'm okay, okay, I'm okay.

And I am okay, but that initial like, oh my God, I, this is, I haven't ceased to exist

like I thought I might has given way just to more general sadness.

It does seem to peak at 7 p.m. no matter what time zone I'm in, 7 p.m. for some reason

is when it just seems to really crest, but I'm also waking up kind of sad.

And then this morning I woke up in a real bitchy mood, so, but that's something that Daniel

can talk about on his podcast, so anyway, I got one second.

I got distracted, but I'm back.

I do not have any privacy here.

And that's okay.

So anyway, yes, I am okay.

I will be back to doing fresh episodes shortly.

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