There are so many, there are so many responsibilities that me as a man that I, Eric, have been ignoring for a long time.

And I mean most Americans do it. I mean the American debt shows us just how much she just fucked up.

If I have, if I have what the American debt means correctly, student loans, credit card debt, like all of our debt is in that debt.

It's not just the debt that the presidents are making up. It's all of, it's an accumulation of everybody's shit.

And it's a representation of how everybody is living. I don't have credit card debt. I have student loan debt, but that sharehunched me like, fuck.

I don't know when I'll be able to pay that back. It just seems like a lot. It seems like a whole lot. Then I have children who will probably want to go to school because America is a country that feeds the country.

That feeds kids, lies. And America is also a country that keeps the parents too busy to dispel those lies from those kids.

So when I smoke, a lot of those responsibilities are just calm and fucking smack me in the fucking face. And they used to make me very, very, very anxious.

I'm talking like, I thought at one point, nigga Kiki was going to attack me, bro. Like I got so high, I thought Kiki was like, bitch, ask, nigga, just for not taking me out.

Like on some, I'm not plot, no, I was like, bro, I was like, man, if this I told Sierra, I said, man, because me and Sierra took an edible.

And we did not want to think about edible is like, you just don't know how much to take. And it takes forever to kick in. When that shit kicked in, we was praying to God that we made a back down safely.

I said, man, if this motherfucking dog decided to go crazy right now, we all did what this fast little fucking rodents with teeth that we have shampooed and fed the best fucking food for 10 years.

What if it just got shitty and was like, you bitch ass. Just one crap, ankles going.

No, I'm thinking like motherfucking what's that last Logan Logan when the little bitch was jumping off the walls with the claws and just

I'm thinking about Kiki jumping off the walls. I don't know where the choking me.

Bro, bro, bro, I took a shot. I was so high one time that I took a shot with the door locked and the shower curtain open.

Yeah, thinking what thinking that's years I'm coming in and kill me.

Yeah, you need to stop smoking.

This is this is years ago. I've got in the I've, but on the on the complete flip of that when we came home with those twins, I was so, so anxious.

I was extremely anxious, bro, and I smoked weed and a voice said, just listen to whatever seer tells you to do.

And all that anxiety went away. I think all of it, but we got durian hyper rash running around ready to come home.

And we got two babies, nigga begging for milk, my wife stomach stapled stitched up. She can't even walk up it down the stairs. Probably I got a feeder.

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