Welcome to Search Engine. I'm PJ vote. Each week we try to answer a question we have

about the world, no question too big, no question too small. This week I try to answer

a question that actually plagued me a decade ago that haunted my entire 20s. Does anyone

actually like their job? Or am I being lied to by a Brooklyn-based musician? This after

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We are living through a wild moment in American history. There are conspiracy theorists on

house committees, extremists on the Supreme Court, and near fistfights on C-SPAN. And with an

intense White House battle ahead, we need a better conversation about the latest big election of

our lives. Hosted by four former Obama aides, Pod Save America hosts used their expertise to

provide listeners with a no bullshit guide to democracy. Every week they break down all the

political news that makes us laugh, cry, and scream into the void. Tell us, figure out what

matters and what each of us can do about it. Pod Save America. The context you need for next week's

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When I was in my 20s I had this recurring fantasy. This little movie I'd play myself in my mind

to calm down when my brain was too jittery and I couldn't sleep. I'd picture myself walking down

my block late at night, completely alone. When all of a sudden this guy would come around the corner

and it would be me, but older. And I'd have just a moment in passing to ask him. Does it work out?

And this older, grizzled version of me would just like, sagely nod his head and then disappear

presumably into the fog of night. Just to be clear, this anxiety I had about my future,

there's not about my health or my friend's health or who was going to be president. From about 2006

to 2014 what I fervently stayed up all night thinking about was whether one day I would get to do

the thing I'm doing exactly right now in this moment. I wanted to tell stories for a living.

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