Hey, my sweet. How you doing today? I am doing an episode like I have never done before.

And normally I wait until I go through something to process my emotions, get the learnings, all things

before I bring it to you.

And today is not that day.

I got some, I don't know, what's the word?

Upsetting news, disappointing news, shocking news, all the above for me a few hours ago. And I am feeling the feels.

And that's part of why I wanted to do this podcast episode to, first of all, share for anybody else who is listening

right now that is not sure what to do with a range of feelings.

Like I can't say that I'm upset. I am not like, woe is me. I am, I know, I believe too much of

the universe has my back. God wanted this situation to work out for me and the

way that I thought I wanted it to work out, it would have gone that way. So like if you're

like me in that sense, you're too developed to like really get devastated, at least over the news that I got today.

It was like, it was a career opportunity thing that I am being passed over for.

Someone didn't choose me.

And I could go, like the prior me would have felt like rejected and oh my

God, it's never going to work out and it works out for everyone else. And I have a little bit

it works out for everyone else. I don't feel rejected. I am like in this very, very tempted to do a downward spiral,

but I'm just not because I also don't want to do that much work on picking myself up and brushing

myself off. So I'm sitting with, okay, my career isn't going to be going down the path that I thought

with the people that I thought in a way that I thought at the time that I thought.

I think that's probably the cleanest energy I can give it right now.

And it's winded me a bit.

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