Diffuse Despair
Rumble Strip
Erica Heilman / Rumble Strip
4.9 • 1.2K Ratings
🗓️ 18 January 2025
⏱️ 16 minutes
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| 0:00.0 | This is Rumblestrip. I'm Erica Heilman. |
| 0:05.2 | Yesterday morning, I called my health insurance company with some questions about some things. |
| 0:11.7 | They weren't, you know, big things, but they were things that I wasn't reimbursed for |
| 0:16.3 | that I thought I should be reimbursed for. And I talked with five customer service people. I repeated my |
| 0:25.2 | address and my social security number five times. Number three, customer service representative I was |
| 0:33.1 | disconnected from, so then I had to start again. And I was on the phone with my health insurance company |
| 0:39.0 | for 49 minutes. And then I started to cry and I cried all morning. And I didn't even really know |
| 0:45.2 | why I was crying. But it has to do with being, I think, at the mercy of failing systems and failing politics and climate disasters. Los Angeles is burning. |
| 1:00.2 | Donald Trump will be sworn into office on Monday. If you want to go to your primary health care |
| 1:05.7 | doctor, you might have to wait until July. During the pandemic, I asked you to send in audio from wherever you were |
| 1:12.9 | so we could make a show about what the pandemic sounded like. I'd like to try that again now. |
| 1:18.4 | I want to make a show about the sound of what I think of is like diffuse despair. Again, |
| 1:32.4 | systems that just don't seem to be working anymore, towns that are obliterated by flood and by fire. I don't want to make a show about why everything is so chaotic or even what we |
| 1:40.4 | can do about it, because I feel like there's plenty of that. I want to make a show about what this time sounds like. |
| 1:47.5 | Maybe you can record a call to your health insurance company or a call to the cable company |
| 1:52.7 | or that self-checkout at the grocery store, but actually you almost always have to talk |
| 1:58.5 | to someone who works there anyway. |
| 2:00.5 | You could describe |
| 2:01.4 | something that you ordered online that doesn't work. If you're in a place that recently flooded, |
| 2:08.2 | maybe you can walk around and describe what you see and what it feels like there now. If you're in |
| 2:13.4 | Los Angeles and you're safe, I would love to hear what Los Angeles sounds like right now. |
| 2:18.9 | You could record a TikTok video or the inauguration or a dinner conversation or a song or a school board |
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