Hello, I'm Father Joe Roche of the Marian Fathers of the Immaculate Conception. Thank you for joining us as we continue with our year-long journey, reading the Diary of St. Maria Faustina Kavalska from beginning to end.

Today we take up from where we left off, beginning with diary entry number 135. During the third probation, the Lord gave me to understand that I should offer myself to him

so that he could do with me as he pleased.

I was to remain standing before him as a victim offering.

At first I was quite frightened, as I felt myself to be so utterly miserable

and knew very well that this was the case. I answered the Lord once again, I am misery

itself. How can I be a hostage for others? You do not understand this today. Tomorrow, during your adoration, I will make it known to you.

My heart trembled, as did my soul.

So deeply did these words sink into my soul.

The word of God is living.

When I came to the adoration, I felt within my soul that I had entered the temple of the

living God, whose majesty is great and incomprehensible, and he made known to me what even the

purest spirits are in his sight. Although I saw nothing externally, God's presence pervaded me. At that very moment, my intellect was

strangely illumined. A vision passed before my eyes of my soul. It was like the vision Jesus had in

the Garden of Olives. First, the physical sufferings and all the circumstances that would increase them,

then the full scope of the spiritual sufferings and those that no one would know about.

Everything entered into the vision, false suspicions, loss of good name. I've summarized it

here, but this knowledge was already so clear that what I went

through later on was in no way different from what I had known in that moment. My name is to be

sacrifice. When the vision ended, a cold sweat bathed my forehead. Jesus made it known to me that even if I did not give my consent to this,

I could still be saved, and he would not lessen his graces,

but would still continue to have the same intimate relationship with me,

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