Hello, I'm Father Joe Roche of the Marian Fathers of the Immaculate Conception.

Thank you for joining us as we continue with our year-long journey,

reading the diary of St. Maria Faustina Kavalska, from beginning to end.

Today we take up from where we left off, beginning with diary entry number 1198.

The 20th of July, 1937. I learned today that I am to go to

Rabka. I was not to leave until August 5th, but I asked Mother Superior, Irene, to let me go at

once. I have not seen Father Andrash at all, and I asked her to let me leave as soon

as possible. Mother Superior was a little surprised that I wanted to leave so soon, but I did

not explain the reason for my wanting to do so. That will remain a secret forever. In these

circumstances I have made one resolution which I am going to keep.

July 29th, I am to leave for Rabka today. I went into the chapel and asked the Lord Jesus for a safe journey.

But within my soul there was silence and darkness. I felt I was all alone, and I had no one to turn to.

I asked Jesus to be with me.

Then I felt a tiny ray of light in my soul as a sign that Jesus was with me.

But after this grace, the darkness and shadows in my soul increased.

Then I said, your will be done, for everything is possible to you.

When I was on the train and gazed through the window at the beautiful countryside and the mountains,

the torments of my soul grew even greater.

As the sisters welcomed me and began to surround me with their warmth, my sufferings redoubled. I would have liked to hide and rest for a while in solitude,

in a word, to be alone. At such moments, no creature is capable of giving me comfort, and even if I had wanted

to say something about myself, I would have experienced new anguish. Therefore, I have kept silent

at such moments, and submitted myself in silence to the will of God. And that has given me relief. I demand nothing from creatures

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