Hello, I'm Father Joe Roche of the Marian Fathers of the Immaculate Conception.

Thank you for joining us as we continue with our year-long journey, reading the Diary of St.

Maria Faustina Kavalska from beginning to end.

Today we take up from where we left off, beginning with Diary Entry Number 981. I understood that these two years of interior suffering which I have

undergone in submission to God's will in order to know it better have advanced

me further in perfection than the previous ten years for two years now I have

been on the cross between heaven and earth.

That is to say, I am bound by the vow of obedience and must obey the superior as God himself.

And on the other hand, God makes his will known to me directly,

and so my inner torture is so great that no one will

either understand or imagine these spiritual sufferings.

It seems to me that it would be easier to give up my life than to go again and again

through one hour of such pain.

I am not even going to write much about this matter,

because one cannot describe what it is like to know God's will directly,

and at the same time, to be perfectly obedient to the divine will as expressed indirectly

through the superiors. Thanks be to God that he has given me a director,

otherwise I would not have advanced one single step. I recently received a lovely letter

from my dear 17-year-old sister Wanda. She is begging and entreating me to help her enter the

convent. She is ready for any sacrifices for God.

I can tell from her letter that the Lord himself is guiding her,

and I rejoice in God's great mercy.

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